an author i love just tweeted about how “big joy and small joy are the same” and how she was just as content the other night eating chocolate and cuddling her dog as she was on her Big Trip to new york and honestly. i think that’s it. this morning i was listening to an audiobook while baking shortbread in my joggers and i realised i really didn’t care what Big Things happened in my future as long as i could keep baking and reading at the weekend and maybe that is the kind of bar we have to set to guard ourselves against disappointment. just appreciate and cherish the mundane stuff and see everything else as a bonus.
found it - she was replying to this thread that starts “unpopular opinion: i don’t think your life has to have a purpose, or you a grand ambition; i think it’s okay to just wander through life finding interesting things until you die” and i for one think that’s fucking brilliant
this will sound mean and i kind of mean it in a mean way but having such a pitiful view of yourself and expecting someone else to fix you helps no one and just makes you look like a fucking worm. YOU need to take the first step. YOU need to make the first move on bettering yourself. this isn’t a movie. this isn’t an anime. no one’s going to fucking fix you, you need to get out of bed one day and decide that life is worth living. you need to stop looking for someone to pull you out of this hole you’ve created for yourself when there’s a rope laying at your feet. DO SOMETHING. i don’t care if it’s making your bed, brushing your teeth, baking something, or cleaning your room. MAKE THE FIRST STEP BECAUSE NO ONE IS GOING TO DO IT FOR YOU. GET THAT IDEA OUT OF YOUR HEAD.
in 10 years of therapy, both occupational and psychological, i’ve only truly appreciated the therapists who never fed me shit. LIFE SUCKS. sometimes it’s supposed to suck. if we run to the vent channels and spiral into a suicidal depression at every little thing, that gets us nowhere. sorry to be that guy, but sometimes you have to suck it up and deal with it. you have to keep your head up and keep walking. you need to swallow it down and move on. not everything is worth dwelling on. not everything is worth crying over. life is cruel, unfair, and often torture. but you NEED to keep living. you need to live on, you need to keep walking, running, crawling, moving forward in some god damn way because that’s all we have. i love you, you’re loved, you need to just live, just live. you need to stop surviving and decide to finally fucking live.
